As the 2019 December holidays was about to start, I thought... why is everyone watching NETFLEX?
I have never had a TV in my house and I know that it is quite difficult to pray after watching a movie (any movie) The images are so vivid in my mind so I had to have some boundaries for the sake of prayer.
But I also knew that I was going to be alone for a number of weeks so I checked out NETFLEX and when I saw it was only R129 a month I decided to try it.
Did I feel a tug in my spirit that day? Looking back... I guess I violated my conscience. Oh, this is hard to admit, I must say.
I started scrolling through the movies and was really taken aback by the amount evil stuff. I clicked on KIDS section and my eyes nearly popped out of my head... I could not believe the amount of witchcraft in front of me. It must be a struggle for parents to navigate that with children these days.
I finally found "sarah movies" Documentaries based on true is my favorite. Any true story usually gets my attention especially if it sheds light on history of nations as a bonus.
When my friend visited me for a couple of days I said (while watching a great "clean" Netflex movie) "I actually think God is asking me to cancel NETFLEX".
She responded by saying something like... the amount you watch and the shows you watch... I do not think anything is wrong with it.
Then came Sunday 12 January.
I woke up with a strong notion not to go to church but to watch a sermon online (which I have not been doing for a while cause I have been going to church (with real people).
That morning my home-church posted a sermon and I thought "This is it, God is going to speak to me" It was a great sermon! But I did not feel that... strong... word...
Seeing that this sermon took me to YOUTUBE, I clicked the next sermon and it was the MIDNIGHT sermon taking us into 1 January 2020. It showed 4hours and 20 minutes long.. and the guest was Benny Hinn. Ok... there will be lots of nice worship - so I opened the link and had the time of my life.
I worshiped the first 2 hours with them. At times you could just sense the Presence of God moving in my house. God spoke a few things to me... I wrote it in my prayer journal and kept watching.
Then came (their) midnight, they took communion and only THEN, after 4 hours did Benny say "I cannot let you leave until I tell you my message!" (I thought... wow, it has already been so rich)
IRAN: He started talking about Iran and the revival happening there. I will copy that part and show you on my FB page... I cried. I wept. It was so powerful.
(Did you know that the very first movie I participated in with Create International was for Iranians... and that we needed a Sunday school teacher for the "silent role" to show the church how to run a Sunday school for kids - I played that silent role seeing that I could pass for an Iranian woman - so I have been to Iran via DVD to 1000's of homes. It makes me happy)
Benny said... continuing with scripture "...you are in this world not off this world" & "... because we are heavenly lets not be connected to earthly things" (very scriptural - Col3:2)
Then Benny says I am going to ask you something you have most likely never done ...
He continues with a personal story about his TVin his house and said:
"...and the Lord was so specific with me.
He suddenly said "CANCEL NETFLEX NOW"
I could not believe my ears.
Then I knew... I just knew.
It was God telling me to cancel it
and here He is DOING IT AGAIN.
I clicked pause,
went to my subscription and hit CANCEL
because delayed obedience is disobedience
and I have delayed long enough.
The weight off my shoulders!
It felt like I took back my home!
I took back the spiritual atmosphere in my jurisdiction.
In some sense I took back authority.
My mind was set back on heavenly not earthly things
... and it felt good and clean. Obedience is always a good feeling.
The pain of obedience is always less
than the pain of disobedience...
and God has a way of getting a message through if He knows that we actually in our heart of hearts wants to obey.
I find it amazing how He got that one to me in such a gentle way.
Oh, He is good... and so patient with me.
The one point in my life where I allowed NETFLEX to really steal, was my evening reading time. (Thank goodness it was only a few weeks)
I go to bed between 7-8PM simply because I read a lot - I need to get through the OT two times a year by reading 5 chapters every evening. My morning reading takes me 4 times through the NT by only reading and meditating on 2 chapters with a cup of coffee around 7am.
I realized, if I watched a movie at night - my P.M. reading suffered. A few places in scripture admonish us to meditate on scripture in the morning & in the evening.
The enemy always battles for this in my life. I think it will be war until I die and I do not want to give up.
PS: On a loving note:
Conviction is from Holy Spirit - if you sense it, obey.
Condemnation is from the Evil One - if you feel it, ignore it.
We are called to walk different journeys.
This is part of mine.
And comparison kills.
So don't even go there...
unless like me,